Sunday, November 6, 2011

Chapter 62-Suspicions


"I think you might be over reacting.  I see the way that man looks at you.  He loves you way too much to cheat on you."
"But what other explanation do you have for his change in behavior?"
I wanted to believe Carter I did but things had gotten strange lately.  Since that first mystery phone call, Marcus has started getting them more frequently.  He would always leave the room and take them in his office.  Other strange behaviors started appearing as well like him showering as soon as he got home from work and he would go to be shortly after the boys and would be asleep by the time I got there.  He was still affectionate and loving but the sex had fizzled.
"I don't know Amari, but after everything I just can't imagine him doing that."
"Even with his increase in business trips?"

"He is a CEO.  It would be crazy that he wouldn't be required to take business trips occasionally.  I think you are projecting."
"What?  What are you talking about?"
"You are feeling guilty for not telling him the truth about the house so you need him to be doing something dishonest as well."
"That is the craziest thing I have ever heard!"
"Maybe so but you shouldn't be lying to your husband yet you are and you are feeling guilty about that fact."
I was guilty for lying but it was more than just the house.  It was everything, my feelings, the truth about my kids.  There was so much I was holding back, how could I not feel guilty for letting him marry me when I should have just let him be free.
"And you think I'm making up all of this odd behavior?"
"No that's not what I'm saying.  Amari look I'm not in your relationship.  I can only make observations based on what I see and what you tell me.  So what I am saying is you need to sit down and have a serious and truthful conversation with your husband."
"I'll think about it."
Carter was probably right but after I tell Marcus everything he would no longer want to be my husband.  I've continued to lie to him after I told him I wouldn't.  Maybe I wasn't suppose to be happy, maybe I was suppose to carry the burden of my fate alone and in misery.  That had to be the case otherwise I wouldn't continue to sabotage myself.  Carter and I spent the rest of the morning talking about the dogs, his job, and the boys.  We spoke about Ceula and her recovery but neither of us mentioned David.  He was still missing and assumed dead at this point but it was still an open case.  The police had come to speak with us and were not happy that Ceula had been flown out of the country.  They said it looked suspicious but I refused to bring her back and have her questioned.  He did mention that his cousin would be coming to stay with him for a while.  Jonas wanted to try out life in the big city for a while and Carter was excited to have some family out here with him.

After he left, I spent my time trying to keep busy and not think about my worries surrounding Marcus.  I hated having these feelings about him, I wanted to believe that maybe Carter was right and I was just projecting my own guilt onto him.  I prayed that was the case.  I needed to come clean, but that was easier said than done.  The boys came running into the house breaking me from my thoughts.  They dropped their bags and ran right outside to play with Fred and Wilma not even stopping to say hello to me. 


I watched them running and playing, so happy enjoying life.  My coming clean would certainly destroy that but continuing to hold on to these lies was eating me alive.  I finally made them come in and do their homework while I fixed dinner. 

After their baths, they made their nightly call to Marcus.  Dax brought me the phone when they had finished talking to him.
"Hey how was your day?"
"Good.  Carter came over and we talked for a while.  How was yours?"
"Long, I'm beat.  I'll probably turn in early tonight."  It was the same thing every night.
"We haven't talked much while you've been gone.  I miss you."

I tried not to let the sadness in my voice come through but I was hurt.  It seemed like he was avoiding even talking to me.
"I know, sorry about that.  I'll make it up to you when I get home."
"Goodnight Marcus."
"Amari, I love you."
"Love you to."
I hung up and tried hard to ignore the nagging feeling eating away at me.  After reading the boys a bedtime story, I took a hot shower and debated on whether or not to call him back.  If he didn't answer it could mean that he was tired and went to sleep, or it could mean he was otherwise occupied.  He would be home on Friday, in two days and then the fate of my marriage would be determined.  I spent those two days in a fog.  I had made myself sick with worry about what I would say, what he would say.  I couldn't keep anything down and hadn't eaten anything more than crackers since Tuesday night.  I kept glancing at the clock, he would be home soon and the closer the time got the more nervous I got.  I had already thrown up three times.  I thought things over and decided to wait until Saturday.  The boys would spend the night with Aric and Nina because if things got bad I didn't want them to see us fighting.  I heard his car in the drive way and had to fight the urge that came over me to vomit again.  This needed to be done but I had to put on a happy face as best I could until tomorrow.  I took a deep breath before opening the door to go greet him, only it wasn't Marcus standing on the other side.

********Sorry this was so short but the next chapter will be longer.***************

18 comments:

  1. Yay! First to comment!

    I like how Carter thinks. I never even thought that the reason Amari may be suspicious of her husband was because she too was hiding secrets. I hope she tells him about her real life someday.

    Can't wait for the next update! Those dogs are so cute btw! :)

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  2. Cliffhanger much? XD
    I can't wait until the confrontation/confession. ;D

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  3. ~ You did not just cut it of there!!!!!!
    ~ It looks like a few secrets are dividing this new marriage,how can he go from ravishing her every chance he gets to just about neglected,that would make anyone suspicious!
    ~ Maybe Carter is right,but I somehow think maybe that something is going on unseen in this situation, as Marcus has changed so much in such a sort time,outside forces at work,nothing new for Amari!
    ~ More Please,loving this!(",)

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  4. What!!!

    You are so mean! This just means that you will have to make the next one even longer!

    I am on pins and needles waiting to see what happens when and if she finally tells Marcus everything. I hope he's not having an affair.

    More when you can please!!! Not trying to rush you! LOL

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  5. Oh.... that's just mean! :'(.

    I hope everything goes okay when she talks to Marcus. Though it seems like it could bring a lot of drama. Yikes...

    Though I have to wonder who was at the door, and how it will affect everything.

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  6. I should hope the visitor is not some cop coming to tell her bad news about Marcus. I want the drama of the confrontation, I want it so badly.Maybe the visitor is Mulo coming to love her senseless again? Ooooh, I can't wait for the next update.

    As for Marcus, he is acting dodgy and I'd be suspicious too. But I like where Karima's going with her thinking too. I like the idea of outside forces very much.

    Hurry, the wait is killing me.

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  7. Hi! Sorry I haven't been commenting recently, we just went through a power outage!
    I wonder if Marcus has already found out about Mulo and the vampire situation... Hmmm... I love Carter's reasoning about Amari's worries, there was some good insight there; I can't see him cheating on Amari either :)And I wonder who's on the other side of that door? I was thinking the same thing as Valpre, either a cop with bad news or Mulo! As much as I like Marcus, I want to see her with Mulo again. I only love Mulo more because he is keeping his distance from Amari and her family :) I can't wait for the next chapter!!!

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  8. @Cat--Carter is a great friend and is full of rational advice. He told her to tell the truth about the babies and now this. He's a great guy that sticks by her and she needs a friend like that.

    I like Fred and Wilma hopefully they will give me puppies LOL

    @Drew--sorry about that. I am working on the next update so it should be out this week.


    @Karima--Yes he has had a sudden change in behavior :-[ which is causing Amari to think all sorts of crazy things. This marriage is full of lies and secrets and they are causing a huge rift.

    @Daisy--Sorry I wasn't trying to be mean. The next one will be longer I promise.

    @Dreamerz--That is going to be a stress and drama filled talk. She has been keeping so much from him that it may be hard to forgive this time even though he has his own secret.

    @Val--No it's not a cop with bad news about Marcus. You will get your drama of the confession. He is acting very strange but he's so caught up with his issue he doesn't see it. The next chapter should hold all sorts of good drama for you.

    @Maddy--no worries. Glad your power is back on. He knows he doesn't like Mulo, what man would like the "other man" but he doesn't know the full story yet. With Carter being on the outside, he can look at things in more reasonable way and give her good advice because of it. Mulo will always be around, and he's closer than you think ;). He did say he would give her space and he is doing that. I love him too. :)

    Thanks everyone for reading. Next update should be out this week.

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  9. Not Marcus??? Awesome cliffhanger! Hmm is it Marisol I wonder? She's been a bit quiet lately...I'm sure there's something she can do to ruin Amari's life more!

    Poor girl is making herself sick worrying over this thing and then there's Marcus and his behavior which is not in her head...I can't wait to see where this goes!

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  10. DJ--Nope not Marcus. LOL...I like your thinking about Marisol she has been quite. Sitting back and watching it all unfold.

    She has made herself sick but the lies were bound to catch up to her at some point. Add to that the stress of thinking her husband is having an affair she is in a bad place.

    Thanks for reading.

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  11. Great chapter. I'm glad she decided to come clean. It needs to be done. I wonder who it could be on the other side of the door? Can't wait to find out :)

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  12. Dem--yes she needs to come clean. The lies are getting to her and she can't take it much more.

    Thanks for reading.

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  13. Ohh the pics in this chapter were great and umm cliffhanger! Dying to know what Marcus's secret is :)

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  14. Thanks Angie. These were basic pics just sims doing what they do. It was nice not to pose them for pictures for a change.

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  15. Wow, hello cliff hanger!

    I think you are serving us better and better screenshots for each chapter. I really, really like this story.

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  16. Sorry I am just now replying. I had a house full of kids this weekend. I can't wait to see who is by the door. Going to your next chapter!

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  17. Hmm, I wonder who's come to visit.. We know it won't be David :P
    I can't imagine Marcus cheating on her, he's probably planning something though I have no idea what!

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    1. LOL nope not David. Marcus doesn't seem like the type to cheat, but Amari knows something is different with him. :(

      thanks for reading

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